We would kiss.
When you would breathe out,
I would breathe in.
To take in your lifegiving oxygen
And the bi-products of your exhalation
into me
Let those self-same molecules that coursed their way through your body
Now course their way through mine
Give me life, as they did you
I meld with it,
And in so doing,
I Meld with You.
Now it Blurs the line between you and me
The distinction between two separate people ceases to be
There are no lines
No Boundaries
No borders
Definitions
Where two people once stood there is something else entirely.
Like two hydrogen atoms being crushed together in the center of a star
Annihilated?
Obliterated?
No.
Not destroyed–
Transmuted.
A helium atom.
Something else.
Something different.
Something new.
Not two things that cease to be
But a new and magnificent element
With its own properties
Its own possibilities
Not You and I,
Not Me and You.
Not Jeniavieve and Ryan.
Not Ryan and Jeniavieve
Us.
Us
Ours is greater than mere love.
Love is a word people use in a ham-fisted attempt to describe a series of chemical reactions happening in their brains
when they see someone.
A storm blows in unexpectedly
High winds rip the roofs off houses
Rain comes down like bullets
Lightning Strikes
The people run
The people Hide
At the sound of our terrible thunder.
How do you stop a thunderstorm?
How do you unwind a hurricane?
You don’t.
Logic and reason are reduced to pointless platitudes
Flaccid and ineffectual
Useless tools
Us is a force of nature
The strong force that binds together quarks
which make up the proton.
And it’s that same force that in turn holds together the nucleus of the atom
Strong Force
Weak Force
Electromagnetism
The fundamental laws that bind the physical universe together
Those forces
And nothing else
are worthy enough to be used to describe the indescribable.
Necessary to take you and me
and turn it into
Us
But right now
There isn’t an Us.
There’s You
And there’s Me.
And the distance in between,
Even one nanometer
Might as well be an unbridgable gap
And the void that ensues
Cannot be filled
There is no answer for a law of nature
that can’t complete itself.
Fusion cannot occur
and turn hydrogen into helium
without the requisite heat and force;
but our star has cooled.
Not too much, one can only hope.
Not for too long, one can only hope
Not forever.
I’m one, now,
and one can only hope.
the hydrogen atom
which, in desiring stability it bonds with oxygen
It doesn’t think
It doesn’t contemplate
Ruminate
Worry
Or ponder
It desires a bond because of the laws of nature,
laws higher and more powerful than itself,
have deemed that that is the way the universe is to be.
And so it is.
Such is the basis of my desire to bond, too.
Guided by something outside myself that I have no knowledge
or ability to comprehend
But that’s okay.
The atom doesn’t care about why or how
It only does what it is in its nature to do.
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